Saturday, April 11, 2009
I just found out something else about myself...
I dont like to face reality
maybe its not true but thats wad I think for now...not even daring to write on other's wall...cuz then i wouldnt where to start. do I even have to right to talk to them. kinda. isolated without even knowing. is it cuz im dating? or is it cuz thats me? lazy to make connections? too "ma fan" too sad? scared to be disappointed by how outdated i am. how much I actualli wanna know what's going on but not going to try..why. i rather be "cool" n leave it alone. which is i dunno..
so yeah. I hope I wont send too much negetive vibes. OH, n i realized how much I care abt how other ppl think of me. n now. i think ppl think me negetively. so generally , when i think ppl dont like me, I wont like them.
when I think they have something against me n try not to understand why I would say or do something so ridiculous, I rather stay away from them.
God, make me what you want me to be. sometimes, I really dislike myself 0_0
I dont like to face reality
maybe its not true but thats wad I think for now...not even daring to write on other's wall...cuz then i wouldnt where to start. do I even have to right to talk to them. kinda. isolated without even knowing. is it cuz im dating? or is it cuz thats me? lazy to make connections? too "ma fan" too sad? scared to be disappointed by how outdated i am. how much I actualli wanna know what's going on but not going to try..why. i rather be "cool" n leave it alone. which is i dunno..
so yeah. I hope I wont send too much negetive vibes. OH, n i realized how much I care abt how other ppl think of me. n now. i think ppl think me negetively. so generally , when i think ppl dont like me, I wont like them.
when I think they have something against me n try not to understand why I would say or do something so ridiculous, I rather stay away from them.
God, make me what you want me to be. sometimes, I really dislike myself 0_0
