Saturday, September 22, 2007
i feel so insulted lor. omgosh v_v ppl shdnt say stuff like that to other ppl.
ur life is quite dull. but u know, ppl get sensitive sometimes. esp ppl who cant realli take criticism n honest direct ways. w/e. neways. im tired.
n yeah. i dunno how to think now. im glad it insulted me. got my back from cloud#9! haha
ur life is quite dull. but u know, ppl get sensitive sometimes. esp ppl who cant realli take criticism n honest direct ways. w/e. neways. im tired.
n yeah. i dunno how to think now. im glad it insulted me. got my back from cloud#9! haha
Monday, September 17, 2007
ahhhz. i dunno wad im doing. sai la. now im all concern abt stupid issues. haiya. its like im falling into it again. n i dunno if its good. i dun think so right. so danng confusing can. sigh. i dunno why im so troubled. its like. i dun even know wad to say. or maybe im just tired - i hope thats the reason. its just like. heavy hearted. something bothering. maybe worried abt ppl. n confused abt myself ah.
i think its the worriedness. maybe i shd try to clear it up tomoro when we meet. but i dont even know how to approach the topic ah.
omgosh - eggie is meowing like CRAZY. n its making mi crazy too. aiyah. how leh? am i just complicating things that is actualli simple? am i doing what im suppose to be doing. sigh its like when u are in charge of every aspect of ur own life, u feel that every decision u make must be correct. like u're responsible for everithing u do now. so u gotta be on ur toes. maybe that's why im so worried. cuz im confused. n i cant be - becuz i'll be responsible for my own actions , i need to know wad im doing.
i better sort out my thoughts n come to a conclusion n solve some problems
i think its the worriedness. maybe i shd try to clear it up tomoro when we meet. but i dont even know how to approach the topic ah.
omgosh - eggie is meowing like CRAZY. n its making mi crazy too. aiyah. how leh? am i just complicating things that is actualli simple? am i doing what im suppose to be doing. sigh its like when u are in charge of every aspect of ur own life, u feel that every decision u make must be correct. like u're responsible for everithing u do now. so u gotta be on ur toes. maybe that's why im so worried. cuz im confused. n i cant be - becuz i'll be responsible for my own actions , i need to know wad im doing.
i better sort out my thoughts n come to a conclusion n solve some problems
Friday, September 07, 2007
omgosh. so much n too much happening alreadi. i feel so sad n confused =(
i dunno wad it is that causes me to feel like that. i think its cuz of the "new-ness" the environment suddenli feels so new. the ppl that i have been hanging out with 24/7 for the last few days are ppl that i dun usualli hang out with. the ppl that i usualli hang out with 24/7 are suudenli all misisng n. well. missing. so maybe. i feel weird. n unhappi. OH well.
plus the stress adding up in school. i dunno anyone in almost all my classes which makes things a lil harder. cuz i wanna do well. n since i duno anyone, i gotta listen realli carefulli n stuff. in case i miss ani important info. n all the new classes..the new environment - so confusing. esp Nutrition 100. off campus course is purely selfstudy n self prep. so lotza organization on my part. many other courses r scary too. wendy is switching course la so i duno anione in my that class now :( sigh. yup. gum yeah..ppl that i was closed too seems far away and are going far away :( which makes me sad. but i dun blame them. i was busy la >< so busy n forgetful. n easily stressed. can die lor. if i were to die from one kinda sickness, it wld prolli be from self-stressing. haha. how sad. but yeah. trying to organize my life back la. but its just pretti munch going everiwhere. ppl that i gotta take care of n need to care for. n ppl that im realli confused abt. n weirdness.
sigh. so sad my sister is leaving. so sad. its hitting me alreadi. tomro is friday. friday, sat, sunday, monday, tues. then - she's gone. life will be so different w/o her. i will miss her. so stupid. im alreadi tearing up now just by typing. haha. but she says she wont miss me. how dissapointing. w/e, life will go on. n i gotta pray that i'll get stronger n stay in one full piece. dont die to stress n emotions. sigh. so ma fan. but. i will miss her. life will be so odd. n weird. my sister. gone for a yr. seems short i guess. but it will feel long..i have been relying on her all my life. from my own problems to family to school books n studen loans. n driving n basicali - everithing. now. im on my own. at least i get to grow up finalli. my sister was someone i always took for granted. someone i totalli rely on, someone i ALways go to when all fails. someone who i know, will ALwaYS be there no matter how annoying n stupid n indecisive n pissing i get. but now, she's gone. good for her tho. i wont show my crappi attitude to her animore. she doesnt have to take that. she has been sucha great sister. i hope she'll do fine in Japan. i hope she'll stay strong too. i hope she'll make lots n lots of frens. i hope she wont ever be lonely. i hope she'll enjoy Japan. i realli realli hope she'll be happy there.
i'll miss EDen so much. stay strong effie. grow stronger day by day
i dunno wad it is that causes me to feel like that. i think its cuz of the "new-ness" the environment suddenli feels so new. the ppl that i have been hanging out with 24/7 for the last few days are ppl that i dun usualli hang out with. the ppl that i usualli hang out with 24/7 are suudenli all misisng n. well. missing. so maybe. i feel weird. n unhappi. OH well.
plus the stress adding up in school. i dunno anyone in almost all my classes which makes things a lil harder. cuz i wanna do well. n since i duno anyone, i gotta listen realli carefulli n stuff. in case i miss ani important info. n all the new classes..the new environment - so confusing. esp Nutrition 100. off campus course is purely selfstudy n self prep. so lotza organization on my part. many other courses r scary too. wendy is switching course la so i duno anione in my that class now :( sigh. yup. gum yeah..ppl that i was closed too seems far away and are going far away :( which makes me sad. but i dun blame them. i was busy la >< so busy n forgetful. n easily stressed. can die lor. if i were to die from one kinda sickness, it wld prolli be from self-stressing. haha. how sad. but yeah. trying to organize my life back la. but its just pretti munch going everiwhere. ppl that i gotta take care of n need to care for. n ppl that im realli confused abt. n weirdness.
sigh. so sad my sister is leaving. so sad. its hitting me alreadi. tomro is friday. friday, sat, sunday, monday, tues. then - she's gone. life will be so different w/o her. i will miss her. so stupid. im alreadi tearing up now just by typing. haha. but she says she wont miss me. how dissapointing. w/e, life will go on. n i gotta pray that i'll get stronger n stay in one full piece. dont die to stress n emotions. sigh. so ma fan. but. i will miss her. life will be so odd. n weird. my sister. gone for a yr. seems short i guess. but it will feel long..i have been relying on her all my life. from my own problems to family to school books n studen loans. n driving n basicali - everithing. now. im on my own. at least i get to grow up finalli. my sister was someone i always took for granted. someone i totalli rely on, someone i ALways go to when all fails. someone who i know, will ALwaYS be there no matter how annoying n stupid n indecisive n pissing i get. but now, she's gone. good for her tho. i wont show my crappi attitude to her animore. she doesnt have to take that. she has been sucha great sister. i hope she'll do fine in Japan. i hope she'll stay strong too. i hope she'll make lots n lots of frens. i hope she wont ever be lonely. i hope she'll enjoy Japan. i realli realli hope she'll be happy there.
i'll miss EDen so much. stay strong effie. grow stronger day by day
