Saturday, December 23, 2006
i guess i am finally blogging about this..i dun want any sympathy or pity or anything. i just wanna let it out..its sad. i thought it could have worked out. now im not even sure if he was telling the truth. maybe im just suspecting him lying so that i can feel better. perhaps i wanna give him a chance, make him more humanly..maybe i just dun wanna believe the truth. or is it the truth?
If he was telling the truth, then i have nothing to say. since u say the feel is gone. what else could i have done? stuff like that..i cant control...so i guess if that's the case..then all i can say is. i guess we've tried. i mean - with the foundation gone. what more can we work from? its over.
but if he wasnt.then, why? why give up now. why make the decision urself. why suffer urself. why make me think that u're the bad guy. we could have worked together to solve it. i would forgive you. i always understood. i've always been waiting...its not like Im not used to it. im mean. 2 yrs..for this? i duno.."its best for me" yeah. sure. i duno. i duno la. i guess in the long run. but all i wish was that u cld tell me earlier. and we could have went thru this together. n not come to sucha ending. its sad.
i miss u lotz. n i noe u wun even read this. becuz u dun even care to go to my blog. but thats ok. i guess time heals. n i just wish i could've spent christmas with you. i've been looking forward to it since the sems started. but i guess. we never made it that far.
If he was telling the truth, then i have nothing to say. since u say the feel is gone. what else could i have done? stuff like that..i cant control...so i guess if that's the case..then all i can say is. i guess we've tried. i mean - with the foundation gone. what more can we work from? its over.
but if he wasnt.then, why? why give up now. why make the decision urself. why suffer urself. why make me think that u're the bad guy. we could have worked together to solve it. i would forgive you. i always understood. i've always been waiting...its not like Im not used to it. im mean. 2 yrs..for this? i duno.."its best for me" yeah. sure. i duno. i duno la. i guess in the long run. but all i wish was that u cld tell me earlier. and we could have went thru this together. n not come to sucha ending. its sad.
i miss u lotz. n i noe u wun even read this. becuz u dun even care to go to my blog. but thats ok. i guess time heals. n i just wish i could've spent christmas with you. i've been looking forward to it since the sems started. but i guess. we never made it that far.
Thursday, December 21, 2006
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