Thursday, July 27, 2006
i guess i expect alot frm [some] ppl. when i feel like shit. i expect them to make mi feel better. but they dont. maybe its just mi being demanding n selfish, but they seemed kinda. insensitive n self centered? like helloooo im actualli TELLING u im feeling like shit. n u dun do anithing to make mi feel better?
i guess i'll just sleep it away. thanks ppl. u just made my day SO much better
i guess i'll just sleep it away. thanks ppl. u just made my day SO much better
Monday, July 17, 2006
"No servant can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the others, or he will be devoted to one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money" -Luke 16:13
Its amazing how God speaks to you sometimes. And even more shocking how easy it is to ignore all the multiple signs he gives u. after multiple experiences, i have learnt something.
God wants me to slow down, listen to him and live FOR him.
i guess i have been pretti involved into my own stuff. getting money, getting earthly things. It started with the guitar. and then after a camera, it was a phone, and after that, it was an ipod. and recently i wanted to have a laptop. Materialistic. chasing after worthless things. and depending on these things.
haha ok. i shall say my story with better phrasing v_v. so i have been working like a cow for the last few months. and hurrying and planning and playing. i basicalli was pursuing - money. even tho i dun love it THAT much. i guess the saying that "u can tell wad a person loves by what he spends his time on" is correct. i spent most of my time making money. n unfortunately, little time mediating on God's word. so last month. @ anrd 28th June, i "lost" my guitar. My guitar that i got for my 16th birthday. my ever first expensive possesion. however, @ that time, i did not realli think much into it. it was more like a "i wanan kill myself for being so careless and irresponsible"..nothing related to God. TODAY however. this morning. i thought i left my ipod [my latest expensive technology] on the bus on sat night. i thought it was gone. i freaked out like there was no tomro...MY IPOD IS GONE. my parents are goona kill mi...it cost so much..i cant afford to buy another one. and. how am i gonna live without my ipod. basicalli, im so screwed. so i prayed. i prayed ALL day..pray that God will give mi back my ipod somehow. n this morning when i fnd out it was gone, i knew. i knew that it had a meaning behind this. God is trying to tell mi something. so i opened my bible. and that verse popped out. this verse is also the same verse that Jon talked abt on friday fellowship. MONEY and GoD. who are we servin?@ that time. i told God " im sorry, im sorry that i have been so busi with work n money. and nv quiet down to hear ur voice. pls gimmi back my ipod. and i promsie that i will not serve money. but u" so all day. that was my prayer. i called the lost n found but there was no news. i told a few ppl. n i came home frm work.
i checked my bag again. and miraclousli. i found my ipod. the joy and the sudden reliezation of God's purpose was overwelming. i feel so blessed yet shameful. God reminded mi and definetly made mi more aware of my actions. where am i putting my time at? where is my heart at? who am i serving? can i give up my earthy possessions? am i too comfortable on earth? why does these materialistic things have sucha great effect on mi? wad is my priorities set on?
"Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you" - John 6:27
Thank you Lord =)
Its amazing how God speaks to you sometimes. And even more shocking how easy it is to ignore all the multiple signs he gives u. after multiple experiences, i have learnt something.
God wants me to slow down, listen to him and live FOR him.
i guess i have been pretti involved into my own stuff. getting money, getting earthly things. It started with the guitar. and then after a camera, it was a phone, and after that, it was an ipod. and recently i wanted to have a laptop. Materialistic. chasing after worthless things. and depending on these things.
haha ok. i shall say my story with better phrasing v_v. so i have been working like a cow for the last few months. and hurrying and planning and playing. i basicalli was pursuing - money. even tho i dun love it THAT much. i guess the saying that "u can tell wad a person loves by what he spends his time on" is correct. i spent most of my time making money. n unfortunately, little time mediating on God's word. so last month. @ anrd 28th June, i "lost" my guitar. My guitar that i got for my 16th birthday. my ever first expensive possesion. however, @ that time, i did not realli think much into it. it was more like a "i wanan kill myself for being so careless and irresponsible"..nothing related to God. TODAY however. this morning. i thought i left my ipod [my latest expensive technology] on the bus on sat night. i thought it was gone. i freaked out like there was no tomro...MY IPOD IS GONE. my parents are goona kill mi...it cost so much..i cant afford to buy another one. and. how am i gonna live without my ipod. basicalli, im so screwed. so i prayed. i prayed ALL day..pray that God will give mi back my ipod somehow. n this morning when i fnd out it was gone, i knew. i knew that it had a meaning behind this. God is trying to tell mi something. so i opened my bible. and that verse popped out. this verse is also the same verse that Jon talked abt on friday fellowship. MONEY and GoD. who are we servin?@ that time. i told God " im sorry, im sorry that i have been so busi with work n money. and nv quiet down to hear ur voice. pls gimmi back my ipod. and i promsie that i will not serve money. but u" so all day. that was my prayer. i called the lost n found but there was no news. i told a few ppl. n i came home frm work.
i checked my bag again. and miraclousli. i found my ipod. the joy and the sudden reliezation of God's purpose was overwelming. i feel so blessed yet shameful. God reminded mi and definetly made mi more aware of my actions. where am i putting my time at? where is my heart at? who am i serving? can i give up my earthy possessions? am i too comfortable on earth? why does these materialistic things have sucha great effect on mi? wad is my priorities set on?
"Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you" - John 6:27
Thank you Lord =)
Sunday, July 09, 2006
wah. ORH HO GU-AI AH 0_0
ho tired ah. sigh..neways.. today worked @ buck or two frm 10-6 then dream tea from 7-12
veri. fun la. but veri tired...haiyo..dream tea is pretti fun to work @...ppl are quite nice actualli =) pretti impressed. i went to visit kristi @ shoppers' b4 dream tea..hehe n she put some stuff on for mi. =D yeah~ n yeah...dream tea was busiiii..busii like a bee. hehe ppl are funi. la. well i realli hope i can pick up fast n do more stuff. today i realli didnt noe wad to do o_o pretti bad cuz i was just standing arnd..but i guesss its cuz i dunno how to do anithing. hahaha. BUT i will learn..realli dunno if i shd miss VBS meeting tomoro for work..ahhh DILEMMA!!! i guess i shd decide tomro. tomroo will be fun ah. get to go girls supper @ amanda's house then after go play bball =D then after that go to amanda's for the night ^^ yeah~ work @ baskin robins the next day la. pretti close i guess. but maybe needa leave real early o.o see how la~ but yea...today it said it wld pick mi up hhaha but the car kanna broke down. so funi. oh well . hope it all works out in the end! im tired. dead tired..
im not even making alot of money.
someone remind mi why im doing this?
ho tired ah. sigh..neways.. today worked @ buck or two frm 10-6 then dream tea from 7-12
veri. fun la. but veri tired...haiyo..dream tea is pretti fun to work @...ppl are quite nice actualli =) pretti impressed. i went to visit kristi @ shoppers' b4 dream tea..hehe n she put some stuff on for mi. =D yeah~ n yeah...dream tea was busiiii..busii like a bee. hehe ppl are funi. la. well i realli hope i can pick up fast n do more stuff. today i realli didnt noe wad to do o_o pretti bad cuz i was just standing arnd..but i guesss its cuz i dunno how to do anithing. hahaha. BUT i will learn..realli dunno if i shd miss VBS meeting tomoro for work..ahhh DILEMMA!!! i guess i shd decide tomro. tomroo will be fun ah. get to go girls supper @ amanda's house then after go play bball =D then after that go to amanda's for the night ^^ yeah~ work @ baskin robins the next day la. pretti close i guess. but maybe needa leave real early o.o see how la~ but yea...today it said it wld pick mi up hhaha but the car kanna broke down. so funi. oh well . hope it all works out in the end! im tired. dead tired..
im not even making alot of money.
someone remind mi why im doing this?
